tonight is the night when two become one...omg remember that song!? SPICE GIRLS! good times good times. no, but tonight is the semi formal @ the church that NO ONE IS GOING TO! yup, that's right-- i'm going :) there's gonna be no guys there but its their loss! actually i dunno if i'm going. i'm really really tired. today like wouldn't end! omg during advisory, i had to go to the nurse to get my eyes, ears, and posture checked. I have never been so violated! the nurse lady made me take off my shirt and then wear this like see through hospital dress! it was really funny. but there were all these guys right outside the room where i was getting checked. ahhhhhh! hahaha...wow. i'm so random. wait-- scratch that. life's so random.

Yes i know that was stupid, but i was feeling ugly and sad, so i decided to write it. I don't really care if you laugh. Actually, I'd be glad if you did.

Once upon a time, there was this little girl named Nandi Rose Ugly Pants. She was quite ugly, as you can tell by her name. Because she was so ugly, no one wanted to play with her. She tried and she tried to make people like her. She tried wearing cool clothes, but they were always too tight. She tried acting dizty, but people just stared at her weirdly and mumbled something that sounded like "weirdo". She tried wearing make-up, but her eyeliner was always smudged, and her lipstick was more like toothstick than lipstick. Nandi Rose Ugly Pants grew more and more lonely each day. No matter how hard she tried, she just wasn't good enough. One day, Nandi Rose Ugly Pants decided to give up. She couldn't take it anymore so she ran and hid in the girls bathroom for the whole school day. No one noticed at first of course, but soon the teachers noticed her absense. By this time, Nandi Rose Ugly Pants had cried so hard, her tears flowed out from under the bathroom door. Mrs. I'm-Very-Nice found her and talked to her about her problems. Mrs I'm-Very-Nice told Nandi Rose Ugly Pants that she didn't have to put up with this. There were other options. She could get homeschooled, she could transfer schools, or she could ignore everyone and be true to herself. Nandi Rose Ugly Pants's parents couldn't homeschool her. She was scared to transfer schools. So she decided to just be herself and to stop trying to fit in. The next day at school she wore her normal clothes. She acted like herself. And her face was completely free of make-up. At lunch, Perfect, a nice little girl, sat with Nandi Rose Ugly Pants. "I never noticed you before. You just looked like everyone else." Perfect said. "I'm through with that. I'm just myself now." Nandi Rose Ugly Pants said. Perfect smiled at her, and that day Nandi Rose Ugly Pants made a friend. Her very first, real friend.

Moral: Be yourself. If you get caught up in trying to please other people, you forget who you really are.

ahhhhh my big toe is bleeding! maybe my sadness will bleed too. maybe then i can be happy and make you laugh! hey, guess what....CHICKEN BUTT! ok sry that's really bad...its the best i can do...better luck next time :(

i wanna be happy and make everyone laugh but at the moment i can't even make myself laugh...sorry for the dissapointment...

somewhere over the rainbow
way up high
there's a place that i've heard of
once, in a lullaby

some day i'll wish upon a star
and wake up where the clouds are far behind me
where troubles melt like lemon drops
high above the chimney tops
thats where you'll find me...

Wow. Calling today a "bad day" would not do it justice. I need some tea. tea will make it all better again. oh if only it were that simple! life is so complicated. i hate it so much. i hate middle school. i have no friends. and life sucks.

I FULLY HATE MATH! I feel so stupid! Both Chris and Dan have tried to explain it to me but I'M SO DUMB! HONESTLY! AND I EVEN THINK THATS AN UNDERSTATEMENT! I'm not being down on myself I'M GIVING IN TO THE TRUTH! I need help. I think I'm gonna transfer to the other math class. The "non exellerated" math class. Who gives a damn if you're exellerated or not! I just wanna understand this stuff!

four banana three banana two banana one
all bananas playing in the bright warm sun
flipping like a pancake, popping like a cork
fleegle, bingo, dropper, and snork!
tra la la la la la la
tra la la la la la la

Lucille=Lucy in case you didn't figure that out. She's a craaaaaaazy little girl! hahaha. Wait--did i say LUCY? omg! I sooooooo didn't mean that!!! I meant THUNDER JUGS! FASTER THAN LIGHTNING! NO ONE CAN STOP HER! tee hee ;)

LUCILLE'S HERE!

i don't think anyone's reading this so i'm gonna put my random silliness on hold...i'm sad. and lonely. i just wish that there was someone who was always there. someone who'd never do anything wrong. someone who'd never hurt me or make me jealous. someone who'd support me 110 %. someone who'd laugh when i act stupid (all the time). someone who'd cry with me when i was sad. but there isn't someone like that. so i must walk the earth forever alone, searching for this faceless dream. but dreams never come true for me, so whats the point?

one banana two banana three banana four
four bananas make a bunch and so do many more
over hill and highway the banana buggies go
coming up to bring you the banana split show
tra la la la la la la
tra la la la la la la

oh wait! sry, my stupid disease sometimes kicks in and i just get...well...stupid. so ne wayz today is tuesday. i luv tuesdays believe it or not. much much MUCH better than mondays. but today wasn't all that great. i spent forever on my english project (gosh Mr LeFevre is harsh) and today just wouldn't end. I was like "DIE DAY DIE" but i guess it'll have to die another day. Get it? b/c the new bond movie is called die another day? tough audience.

omg! this background is so random! i luv it!